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Happiness blooms from within

CAPTAINS LOG: 4th August IT’S not what happens to you but how you react that matters.  It’s not what happens to you but how secure you are in yourself that allows the best or worst of reactions.  I see the ‘happiness blooms from within’ quote all the time (because I...

Don’t Panic!

CAPTAINS LOG: 7th July LAST week I wasn’t well (don’t worry, it’s not a pity post!) and I spent the at home. Various tests later it turns out that I am still a medical mystery. At 49 years old I remain and probably will always be undiagnosed. By Friday of last week I...

Write your own fortune

CAPTAINS LOG: 9th June I can’t remember a time I didn’t want to be a writer.  A time when I didn’t want to be an author.  I have never wanted to be anything else.  I have never had a career; I have only ever had jobs…and man, have I had a lot of them.  What’s really...

Life is a gift…open your present

CAPTAINS LOG: 2nd June  OVER the last couple of weeks I have been reminded of just how precious life is and the importance of being happy and living it to the fullest.  In a few weeks I turn 49.  I actually can’t fucking believe I will be 49 years old.  I’m rebelling...

Doing it for yo-self

CAPTAINS LOG: 12th May ON the estate I grew up on, there was a woman who lived up the road who used to say (to anybody who would listen) “if I knew then, what I know now…” to be fair she was talking about having kids but that’s a whole different subject. BUT it got me...

Love Kindly

CAPTAINS LOG:  28th April I don’t believe in coincidence.  I was thinking about doing this blog a couple of weeks ago and then…. ON my way home from work one day last week, I saw a guy I used to work with.  I didn’t smile or stop to say hello.  Instead I kept my head...

Loyalty Scheme

CAPTAINS LOG: 21st April 2019 There is a fore-note to this blog…it was supposed to go out last weekend having been written the previous week but due to stuff happening, I thought it prudent to not release it.  Then my voice of reason spoke to me and (I quote) ‘you...

This is my Circus.

CAPTAINS LOG:  14th April THIS week I celebrated 10 years of the boys and I living in our house.  When I say celebrated, it wasn’t a party, more of a stand by the kitchen window smiling with a G & T in my hand and smiling like a loon.  TEN years have literally...

Well, that was different…

CAPTAINS LOG:  31st March I only bloody, fucking made it!!  Today is a momentous day for me and I am absolutely astounded.  In the early hours of this morning, the clocks finally went forward.   Why is it a momentous occasion?  My depression, whilst can and does...

My Mum wrote a Porno

CAPTAINS LOG: 24th March If you have never heard the Podcast ‘My Dad wrote a porno’ I would actively encourage you to do it.  It is ridiculously funny.  The Dad writes in a kind of Lady Chatterly /Dickensian (excuse the pun) way and his dialogue along with sexual...